#4

For this week's lecture, I have learned about some grammar rules, such as punctuation and some confused words. Basically I had learnt it 10 years ago, but I have learned something new after the class as well.

I actually did lie to Ms. Thinessha, for once. It was Tuesday, and it's after her class. I approached to her and hank shake with her. The first thing she ask me was am I alright. I said yes, but it's actually not. I was very upset after Mr. Sree class that day. My team only score 14 out of 20 for the video presentation. I have edited few teams' video, and their group score higher, but it wasn't the main point, we were weak in answering question, have no teamwork. I was like, why? Why after all I had done all my best and this is the shit that I deserved? I put a ton of blames onto my teammates in my heart, and I never tell them. Not only that, that day I'm still thinking what should I do to my cooking program video and also the video assignment from Ms. Putri class. I felt so depress. Why there's no one helping me out? I chose to give up to talk to anyone.

After the whole week, I got a brilliant video produced with my team for Ms. Putri's class, which names How To Pick Up A Girl. Everyone in the class seems love the video so much, they die in laughter, same goes to the lecturers. The whole idea wasn't come from me, therefore I'm so appreciate that my team did a very good job that I don't know how to thanks anymore. But it's not same as the cooking program video. My team and I had decided to add on some scenes in order to make the video looks cool and better. My team is supportive, but they don't really know how to support me. The idea is actually all from me, and I did the editing, everything. Editing video from 12 a.m. to 6 a.m. was the best damn thing that I have ever done. The next day I still made myself to shoot for the video that I have just mentioned earlier.

On Thursday, Ms. Thinessha had checked my team's cooking program video. She said it is nice and so far the best. To be honest, I did put a lot of effort, but it's not what I want, I'm not doing it happily. Yet, I felt so blessed after I heard the compliment, it makes me stand up again and move on.

I had felt the same way more earlier when I was doing for my Do's & Don'ts video. I mean what the hell is going with my teams for this EIP? You guys only work hard for IMC? And that's all you got? Seriously?!

To some students,

I'm not sure what have in your mind about an individual's feeling. But can you slightly think abut other's feeling? Is not that only you can have your own private and free time, I need it too! But I sacrificed it to make your LIFE better. Is that something I deserved? And you think that a "thank you" can make my health become good as before? Why are you so selfish?! Don't tell me to not blame this and that, because I can learn a lot if my teammates didn't work well and I able to lead them well. BULLSHIT. This is teamwork project, not my solo performance, the whole team needs to contribute something and everyone is fair. In addition, since when I have become the leader? I do really learned a lot! God damn you! You have your mouth to talk, but you also have your hands to do things, please use them both wisely!

And when it comes to the end of the day, everyone found me so emo and sad, looking at me like Imma freak. At least a freak is always better than you asshole! Jesus Christ!

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#3

For this week’s lecture, I have learned about the types, form and style of writing. There are 4 types of writing that are expository, an explanation writing without own opinion, persuasive, a convincing writing, narrative, a story telling writing, and descriptive, an describe writing with own experience and opinions. In writing patterns, there are textbook writing, articles, recipes, new stories (not including own opinion or editorial pieces), and business, technical or scientific writing. While style of writing includes poetry, journal or diary writing, nature writing, and descriptive passage in fiction.

For this week's tutorial, Ms. Thinessha has shared us an short video in the class. The title for the video is Identity. In the video, everyone in the university are wearing different pattern and color of mask. The main female character in the movie was also wearing a mask and she got isolated by the students around her. She was all alone with herself all the time. Through a scene, I know that her father has left her and her mother and went away from home. One day, she was so despair and she got up and went into washroom. In the washroom she fall to the ground. Her mask was broken. She took off her mask and she saw her face. It is actually a beautiful, but been hiding behind the mask for so long. She smile as she finally got out from the shadow and be herself again. She live again.

While I am the opposite of the character in the video. I'm wearing a mask like her, but it's a happy mask. People see me being so happy and funny everyday, they think I am actually positive. But once I'm alone by myself, I will take off my mask. Wearing this mask makes me so tired, but it's better that I just put it on everyday, because without this mask, people around me may get affected by my negative magnetic field. They will go away from me, because they say they can't withstand with this kind of people. They want me to be happy, so I choose to wear this mask. Even if I show my sad face mask, I know, no one will bother anyway, while I'm the one who always care about people's feeling and their difficulties. So I send helps and concerns everyday, hoping for a reward, but none.

There was a girl ask me just yesterday, what am I so kind to everyone. I don't have my answer actually. It's either I'll be an angel, or a devil. I can't really define it. But I try to not let the devil come out again. Yet, He's sleeping inside of me.

Don't take things for granted, He will seek you out!